Empty

I am feeling burnt out. Or should I say empty.. 

Most of all I am lonesome.

This year has been rough.

I have only gotten to spend 16 days total with Ryan so far.

 He has been away from home totalling 9 weeks so far, and still gone.

I am finding it hard to stay positive.

  I am truly thankful that Ryan has indeed had work, but am tired of being alone.

It's now time for him to come home, we need him!

I don't think I can do this much longer.

 I need him. I need his companionship. My confidant. A shoulder to lean on.

 The things I enjoyed doing, aren't so enjoyable anymore.

The things I never had to do, I have to.

I do have something to wake each morning and put my best foot forward.

They are our children.

I have tried hard to keep a loving, stable home for them, when life otherwise feels like a mess.

I also have some wonderful and supportive family and friends.

I think I would have lost it already if I didn't have them.